No One Would Riot For Less

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 23:04:43 GMT

moving to ypsi in the next two weeks.

anyone want to help me move?

anyone who has a vehicle that can move 2 dressers, my bed, tv, bookcase, and various other things i have...?

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 06:56:16 GMT

i am drunk and love my life

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 11:35:30 GMT

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Mon, 09 Mar 2009 12:22:34 GMT

im writing a plan. a great fucking plan! a plan to end all plans! a plan that will be so mind blowingly amazing childrens heads all over the world will explode!

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 07:59:50 GMT

so.... i got myself a laptop! ibook g4. pretty much everything in it is brand new! yay.

meeting adams dad went great.

got my second tattoo not to long ago. "love without expectations" on my inner right bicep. word.

my feet are cold.

moving....

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 20:34:38 GMT

so the move to austin has been pushed back from 6-8 to about a year now...

family things, work things, car things, life things, have pushed the move...

:(

but its gonna happen just need to push a little harder...

meeting adams dad today... interesting... this is like the last important family member to meet..

MOVING

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 04:51:38 GMT

well so news!

i may or may not, and by may not i mean i probably am...

MOVING!!!! TO AUSTIN!

word.

this wont be happening or another 6 or 8 months... but its happening.

i might be moving with adam, or just moving by myself.

regardless of whether or not adam is moving with me im going.

so yeah.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 22:14:45 GMT

im so flighty with my journal...

i suck

house things are happening and stuff and well really thats about all i can say about it. its going to be weird not living in birmingham, well i mean not birmingham, but my house there. its a big change for me, but a big change i think i need.

adams birthday today. fancy.

gwa. murf. dick.

um i guess ill just write more later...

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 07:18:39 GMT

i seriously do think i only write in here when im upset.

totally stranded in a place i dont want to be right now...

i wanna be home in bed. i wanna be home in my bed with adam. i want it to be noon again. so i can lay in bed and be happy about where i am.

it's funny to see how people change but they really dont. how i guess they never really did care about how things they did or things they said affected me. i didnt really ask for a lot. but it seemed like i never really got the important stuff.

i fucked up too. in a different way. but at least they can look back on it and im just that stupid whore of an exgirlfriend who they fell in love with. but for me... i look back on it... and its hard to remember why i was sad, why i was miserable, and then sometimes i think that im crazy. that there really was nothing wrong and it was really all my fault. then i wake up and realize it wasnt really anyones fault, i just didnt get it and he just didnt get it.

we still dont get it.

and i dont think we're ever gonna get it.

but i still feel like an asshole. and i still feel like the one who should be saying their sorry. but maybe i wanna here an "im sorry" too.

i just dont think im ever gonna get it.

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 07:04:36 GMT

Are you in a good mood right now? No.
Do you need to say anything to someone? Yeah, fucking call me you shit head
What made you mad today? Something dumb. It's always something dumb.
Are you available? No.
Will you be in a relationship in four months? I don't know. I'm in one now?
Do you hate it when people smoke around you? No.
Will your next kiss be a mistake? I don't think so
Where is the shirt you are wearing from? Derby Wrestling Team, 2003
Do you mind being cold? Eh, I'm always cold.
Are you afraid of falling in love? No...
Have you held hands with anybody in the past week? Yes.
Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to & your sure they won't tell anyone? Yes.
Did you go out or stay in last night? In...
Whats something you really want right now, be honest? 1. Money 2. A better Job 3. Adam not having to move to Alanta 4. More booze.
Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself? I exsit, so I guess i have to be.
What was the first thing you did this morning? Kiss Adam.
What upcoming event are you waiting and ready for? Sisters Of Mercy concert, Sam being in town
Do you forgive and forget? Forgive yes, Forget probably not.
What did you do today? Went to Adams house, Bowling, Pool, Drink Wine.
Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Eh, depends on the situation
What don’t you leave the house without? Cloths... Usually.
Do you believe in love? Sure why not?!
What would you rather be doing right now? I dunno, maybe feel less awkward and sit in my living room with my friends...
Do you get distracted easily? Not usually.
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Adam.
Your thoughts of long distance relationships? Alanta... FUCK!
Think of the person you'd like to be with most right now, when did you last see them? Driving pasted a pizza place in East Lansing, fall of 2006.
Is there a guy that knows everything or mostly everything about you? Yeah...
When is the last time you took a nap? Don't rember.
What were you doing at 8 this morning? Sleeping.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 20:01:50 GMT

i apparently relapse fast.

yesterday was the worst day to try and quit. about 6 hours after posting that i bought a pack.

i need $303 dollars by tuesday. because if i dont pay verizon that money by tuesday they completely disconnect me which will cost me about 400 more dollars because its 175 fee per line and i have 2 one for me and one for uncle. but my uncle cant put any money to it because we have gas and electric bills coming up and well claire's is only giving me 7 hours a week and uncle is still un-employed. so i need to find a second or third job asap.

until then any donations to the "HELP AMANDA NOT KILL HERSELF FUND" will be gratefully appreciated.

send all checks or cash to:

Amanda Harris
1695 Bowers
Birmingham, MI
48009

and plesae have them here by monday. thanks so much.

o yeah ill try and pay anyone back asap.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 22:45:05 GMT

im quitting smoking today. gross.

Love<3

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 08:01:00 GMT

Wishbone : Architecture In Helsinki

Choking on a wishbone in the firing line of lovers who will never slow down.

And I won't let you steer, comandere the atmosphere, since you suggested running away, it's romantic. Hit the redial, maybe we can sigh a while, save our second wind for sentimental warm weather. Four forever, two together, we'll play dead, we'll play dead. Should we make believe you remember me from a holiday delayed by a storm? Should we chance our arms alarms set to high noon until the shiver in the river is gone? Hoping you might whistle, get all dizzy cos I found the reason why you're around If I won't stay sincere talk you through the tangles, can you chase me till you my feet touch the ground, and go dancing. Tambourine style walking in a single file. You whisper half thoughts to me. Should we make believe you remember me from a holiday delayed by a storm? Should we chance our arms alarms set to high noon until the shiver in the river is gone?

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 20:32:42 GMT

work in like 2 hours, making food, must shower, tired lazy dont want to do anything today but lay in bed.

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thats exactly how i feel

O NO MY NOODLES ARE BURNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 30 May 2007 21:35:18 GMT

new screen name:

TheModernTwiggy

and i will cut you if you make fun of this one....

like the last billion ive had....

i really just need to get a good one

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 07:45:11 GMT

arika got me out of the house tonight, we went and got some foods then went and saw ghost rider. i had a lot of fun with her, she makes me happy. it was a good night.

you know that feeling you get when you make eye contact with someone and you both give that smile? the butterflies? the nervous giggle that follows?
what happens next?

yucky poo...

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 23:53:31 GMT

well today i have done nothing productive at all! i have spent the entire day feeling sorry for myself and blowing my nose!

i will however be cleaning my room and bathroom tonight seeing as how i have to give brett a hair cut tomorrow. which will be much easier for me to do in a clean organized bathroom.

well im going back to the living room to play more video games! ta ta all.

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 00:05:26 GMT

ive been freezing all day, major headache, tummy cramps. i think im dying, im pretty sure its a nice brain tumor.

bought Totally F***ed Up today. o greg araki lets have babies. So all i need to get is Nowhere and i've compleated the trilogy. The Doom Generation, is good, so is Totally F***ed Up, i really need to get Nowhere, i bet its good.

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 20:19:01 GMT

Xanax - Maria Taylor

Afraid of an airplane
Of a car swerving in the lane
Of a dark cloud too low
Of being swept away by the undertow
Of a building tumbling down
Of the train when it's underground
Of the icy mountain roads
We have to take to get to the show

There's just a time when we must all let go of that that we hold
There's just a time when we must all let go of that that we hold
With not being known, we'll have to go

Afraid when the phone rings
Another breath of life has ceased
It seems it's just lost so easily

Afraid of my heart that beats too slow
Or that I died and just didn't know
Or of a fate I will have to choose
And I'm afraid of how much I love you

There's just a time when we must all let go of that that we hold
There's just a time when we must all let go of that that we hold
With not being known, we'll have to go

It's just now that I've found a place where I can breathe
It's just now that I've found a place where I can sleep
It's just now that I've found a place where I can breathe
It's just now that I've found a place where I can sleep
It's just now that I've found a place where I can breathe
It's just now that I've found a place where I can sleep
It's just now that I've found a place where I can breathe
It's just now that I've found a place where I can sleep

I might be better off dead right now...

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 07:29:13 GMT

well, my laptop is offically dead. no more. dead. and well a huge part of me died with it. so matt is hopefully going to give me 400 cuz... well he killed it. and then i might be able to scrounge up 800 to get a brand new iBook. but eh... i dont want to talk about that anymore.

i might be going to taking back sunday on friday... with zeyad, which wil be cool. we hung out tonight which was awesome we're over the awkwardness of life with each other, and we're actualy legit friends now. which is nice. zeyad buddy and i are planning on hanging out on sat, which will be like the good ole days, only this time im not going to be dating z. woot!

later today, im calling my theripist. i have decided to go back... which i guess is a good idea. im sick of trying to make it all make sense alone, and it would be nice to talk to someone who isnt involved in any of it, and has nothing to gain or lose with the decisions i make. i think everything just really hit the fan today at the apple store when i burst out into tears when they told me that lappy was dead. i mean really... who cries about that. it was like "hey amanda i think you maybe have an attatchment issue..." i mean really who does that? i have trouble throwing gum wrappers out...

NoDontLeaveILuvU: its like, i had this really great black shirt, and i loved it more than any of my other cloths, and was so happy i had it and wore it all the time, and it looked great on me, basically the idea shirt
NoDontLeaveILuvU: then one day for no reason i poured bleach all over it
NoDontLeaveILuvU: then realized what i did, and realized that life is basically worthless without THAT shirt
NoDontLeaveILuvU: and no other shirt could replace it
NoDontLeaveILuvU: but i still had the shirt and i still wore it, even though it wasnt the same, i was just happy to still have it
NoDontLeaveILuvU: and im afraid that someone is going to love the shirt the way i did, and take it from me

that was me describing how i feel about tristan... i liked how i somehow turned him into a shirt...

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 20:37:23 GMT

lappy might be dead.

6:20pm is my appt for the apple store.

please pray for my laptop.

God Damn I'm Epic

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 17:20:33 GMT

well, i have been busy lately and have had little time to digest what is going on in my life lately. but here is a quick yet lacking of detail update of my last week or so:

1. Zeyad and I are talking agian.
2. Zeyad, Liz(his girlfriend) and I have been hanging out the last 2 days, today will be our 3rd.
3. I have been in Ann Arbor for the majority of the last week. Might be there again sometime this weekend.
4. It is warmer out. YAY!
5. Tomorrow I will begin talking to my uncle about me starting therpy again.
6. Buddy and I had a conversation about us starting to date. It was awkward. We decided it would ruin everything.
7. God Damn I'm Epic. Nick, Erica, and I realized that we're god damn epic last night.
8. I have lost a great deal of weight. Is 98lbs healthy?
9. I have a relatively nomal sleep schedual.

so that is my poor excuse for an update. my entries should return to normal, in the near. Life has been busy, and I am glad.

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 19:55:26 GMT

sex hair.

ann arbor yesterday. bubble tea. being a super hero. xhedos. cross dressers. cancer. soul calabor 3. annoyed.

ann arbor agian today. more soul calabor 3. skin tight black jeans (lip service). annoying voice mails.

what would god do without frozen chocolate pudding cups?

i will update more later. i have been busy. expect more detail later!

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 15:37:54 GMT

happy valentines day!

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 10:33:14 GMT

made some brownies... uncle tried to get me to save them for allison for later today... that did not happen, the chocolate was talking to me... so i did what it said and helped it commit suicide...it was the right thing to do.

o my uncle mentioned to me that someone had made a comment about my spelling in here... and wel all i have to say is, if you have been reading this you will notice the large amount of spelling and punctuation errors... they are there because i do not care, if i miss spell something i do not go back and fix it, because frankly i think you all get the point... the comment was referring to the fact that i spelt "writing" with two t's. which is just basically me hitting the T key twice and not noticing. so sorry if any of you have been ofended by my lack of spell checking.

so today i think i will not sleep, which will put me in a very cherry mood so when i decide to go out, i will have not slept and have eaten enough chocolate to die of diabetic shock, that i shall have no problem of yelling at couples! which is one of my favorite past times! o pot of coffee why can you not make yourself!!!!

damn its always at like 530a that i get sleepy i just need to push on, maybe i will clean a little??? that would be a nice gift to the house!